So This Is Life..

And JUMP!

Well today I am back to where I need to be physically wise..the past few days I have woken up with those "man I feel skinny" days..best days EVER! Wendy knows what I'm taking about..the pants are too big, the tummy is flat and you just feel GOOD!

Now I hit this place, lots, but then at times I use that as an "oh, I can eat whatever I want for this week"..and then the hurdle is never jumped..it just stays the same, and the same old "skinny" is now the new "fat" and that's not fun!

So today..even though I am feeling skinny, and there is lots of good-ness at my mom's to eat, it's my new goal to ALWAYS wake up with that skinny feeling..cuz it's the BEST EVER!

posted by Susan @ 9:44 PM 1 comments

Third Times The Charm..

Boot camp day THREE!! Sure did not want to get out of bed today, but it was great!! It's 8 in the morning, I've been up forever, and I don't work until nine! It's quite nice. I've been loving it, the feeling of waking up the next day and being so sore it hurts to move is INCREDIBLE! haha..

They told us today that they are starting another boot camp up next week that will run on Monday Wednesday..the one I'm doing is Tuesday Thursday..I'm not too sure if I would survive if I did it for 4 days a week..but I am tempted!! If I wasn't working two jobs I probably would for sure..but they said they will run them all summer long if people still want to do it, so I'm think I'm boot camping it all summer!

My new job is fun, I like giving people food and talking to the cute baseball players haha..I do however HATE feeling greasy from the stupid deep fryer it's so nasty! ICK!

That's all I got for today!

posted by Susan @ 8:04 AM 2 comments

Day One..

My day today started at 5:20 with the song Maneater. Surprisingly I woke up, and I was quite excited for my day. Went to Kinsmen Park for Day One of BOOTCAMP!! It was fantastic!

One of the instructors reminded me a lot of the lead singer from the Pussycat Dolls, so that was funny. At first I was thinking "Hmm..this really isn't challenging", but I gave it my ALL anyways. Of course though, things got intense and I almost died. But it was GREAT!! I am so tired but have so much energy at the same time. I haven't drank as much water as I have today in my entire lifetime and it's only one o'clock!!

I am on a short break, and then off to work again, and then off work and then gone to Day One of my second job!! Then I work till 10...looooooong day. It's funny, I'm training a girl tonight..it's my first night..WEIRD! haha..and then I get to wake up tomorrow and do the whole 15 hour day thing AGAIN, and then on Thursday AGAIN!

I'm sure it will be worth it, I plan on blogging about all my bootcamp experiences, so if you don't hear from me soon I am for surely dead.

posted by Susan @ 1:14 PM 1 comments

Two Words..Boot..Camp..

Well, I think I just ended my own life.

I have signed up for a boot camp with quantum fitness. Two times a week, for a month, 6am, outside..it will be GREAT!! I am so pumped. Minus the fact that waking up that early will suck, and minus the fact that it is at Kinsmen Park which I hate incredibly, and minus the fact that my days will become 16 hours because I will be working two jobs. BUT! It will be great..and I need this as a reminder when I am swearing my face off when that alarm starts beeping at 5:30!!

DO IT FOR SKINNY!

posted by Susan @ 8:10 PM 1 comments

Random..

Well, since I have nothing good to share about life I will say a funny story.

I went to Regina this weekend and my aunt has this friend who has this son who just so happens to be single. She phoned her friend who phoned her son who asked him if he wanted to take me to a movie. He said sure, however..it wasn't meant to be. The only night I had available was Saturday, and his was Sunday. His reason for not being available on Saturday...

AA meeting...

I laughed. I mean hey, good for him that he realizes his problem and wants to deal with it. I just found a lot of humour in it. Kind of sad, a blind date would have been a lot of fun. Maybe next time I'm in Regina..

posted by Susan @ 9:27 PM 1 comments

I Forgot..

I forgot what happiness felt like..until last night! WOW! Life is so exciting!! I honestly haven't felt this amazing..in..a loooooooong time.

To all those people who need fire starters, the perfect wood and no wind to create an amazing fire..learn from the pros. First you start with some sweat pants and a t-shirt and a wee little lighter..the rest is history.

Me and Ashleigh spent some time by the river yesterday at a firepit getting rid of all of the evidence of how stupid we have been in the past. March 15th, is our new birthdays. Most amazing feeling ever. Just being DONE, and having no excuse to look back. I woke up today and just felt GREAT! This is going to the best rest of my life ever. The smell of freedom is still on my coat, and hair but it is glorious!

We both thought we would be really sad, and have a hard time, but it was great. We reminised (spelling!?!?), laughed, thought about crying but didn't, got out a little anger, yelled, laughed some more and finished the evening with Moxie sized bellini's! YUM!

However, one thing I will never ever as long as I live forget is the moment straight from a horror movie. I threw a teddy bear into the fire, face first, it flips over and is looking at us with its flaming face and feet. I screamed and then almost died laughing. Terrifying.

What a beautiful day. Tonight is possibly the greatest concert I will ever attend, this weekend has lot of fun filled options, and life is new again, and the string that I've been holding onto for the past six years...well, it's in the firepit by the river.

posted by Susan @ 12:19 PM 1 comments

Starts With Good-bye..

I was sitting on my doorstep
Hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand
But I knew I had to do it
And he wouldn't understand

So hard to see myself without him
I felt a piece of my heart break
But when you're standing at a crossroad
There's a choice you gotta make

I guess it's gonna have to hurt
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side
I guess it's gonna break me down
Like falling when you try to fly
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life
Starts with goodbye

I know there's a blue horizon
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me
Getting there means leaving things behind
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet

I guess it's gonna have to hurt
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side
I guess it's gonna break me down
Like falling when you try to fly
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life
Starts with goodbye.

Time, time heals
The wounds that you feel
Somehow, but right now

I guess it's gonna have to hurt
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side
I guess it's gonna break me down
Like falling when you try to fly
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life
Starts with goodbye

posted by Susan @ 3:20 PM 2 comments